It is so easy to get caught up in the negatives this life can throw at you. I don’t know about you, but I like my comfortable little world and I tend to be quite bothered when things get out of order.
Order. Now that’s a word those of us with a touch of OCD understand completely. Disorder rocks our world. Hurricane Matthew has rocked a lot of worlds. Everyone in Lenoir County has been affected in some way. Unlike mine, your house may be just as it was before, but your daily commute has probably been altered immensely. Or perhaps your business is down right now. My dad’s certainly is. People have “bigger fish to fry” or they still can’t travel to his side of the county. Some folks haven’t even been allowed back to see what remains of their homes. Now that makes my damage seem minuscule and insignificant. I have a place to stay and family and friends willing to help me get my home back in living condition. I am financially able to eat and buy gas for my car and replace water damaged items. Not everyone can say that. Some are ruined physically and financially. Yes, there is help through FEMA, but it won’t be enough for those that were already struggling to make ends meet. Realizing how many fit in that category is humbling.
Earlier this week, I allowed the enemy to put the weight of the last 15 years of my life fully on my shoulders. When I look back over those years, there has been one big life-altering event after another and dwelling on them isn’t good. Sharing that with my daughter, she reminded me that much good has occurred during those same years. And she is so right! You see, the enemy wants us to be unable to see all the good. If we only see the negative, then we don’t operate with a grateful heart and you know where that leads.
I love how God uses other people to speak truth into our lives. Her words made me step back and reevaluate and when I did, the weight lifted. Jesus took the weight just as He promised He would do.
This morning’s “Jesus Calling” was once again written for me!!! The present disorder in my life is something I can’t control. I like order, thus I like control!!! I was reminded that when unwanted events inch in and disrupt my order, I get resentful. Oh, I might not readily admit it, but it’s true. The devotional called it “rebellious tendencies.” Yep, my heart gets rebellious and I grumble and complain. But that’s not the best way to deal with it.
“The best response to losses or thwarted hopes is praise:
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
In my own strength, I can’t praise Him in times of disorder or pain or grief. Thankfully, He didn’t leave me to do that on my own. It is in the power of His Holy Spirit as I submit my will to His that the strength is found. How very thankful that God loves me so much He would indwell and empower me with His Spirit. It is my heart’s prayer that all would know this amazing love. Life is just simply too difficult to struggle through on our own.
Lots of love, Sharon