For at least a month, I’ve had a note on my kitchen bar;
a note with a blog post idea.
The problem has been how to take that idea and turn it into a post that would
speak to both you, my readers, and to myself.
Until now, I had nothing.
Here’s the deal:
WE ALL STRUGGLE!!!
No matter how “mature” we supposedly are in our walk with the Lord,
we still have times that are just plain ugly.
None of us have it all together.
Oh, we may try to make you think that, but we don’t.
NO ONE DOES!
Maybe you don’t struggle as much as I do with your flesh,
but everyday is a big-time fight in my very being.
Most of the time, because I give control over to the Holy Spirit,
the struggle stays out of sight.
Only I am aware of it within my soul.
But sometimes, I let my guard drop and think I can control my own self.
That’s when it gets ugly.
We all have those people in our lives who just push our buttons.
Don’t pretend you don’t!!!!!
And some days, it only takes a light tap to get us going.
Are you with me yet?
We can justify our behavior quite brilliantly.
After all, they deserved it.
But then the Holy Spirit starts niggling at our conscience
and we know we didn’t reflect Jesus in our actions.
No matter what the other person did,
we didn’t respond from a heart of love,
but rather a heart of stone.
That’s where it gets really hard.
I have to answer for what I do, not for what another does.
I have to answer why I responded as I did.
Why was I angry?
What exactly was I angry about?
Did my anger really do anything to improve the situation
or did it just hurt and embarrass and maybe even sever relationships?
That hurts deep down inside.
No matter the problem, I am called to respond with grace and love and mercy.
That’s how Jesus responds to me
and I certainly don’t deserve any of that.
So, what’s my point?
None of us have arrived.
None of us reflect Jesus as He would have us to do.
We are all still growing in our walk with Him.
BUT THAT’S NO EXCUSE FOR UGLINESS IN OUR ACTIONS!!
I am so thankful for God’s sufficient grace that covers all my messes.
But the consequences of my actions still remain even when He forgives my ugliness.
May we take more time to surrender our thoughts, our words, and our actions
to the Almighty who will cause them to be pure and holy instead of ugly and unholy.
I know I need to.
How about you?
Lots of love, Sharon