Just as every other day of my life, the sun rose this morning, oblivious to the empty place in my life.
One year ago today, Les went on ahead of me to live with Jesus.
It was an awesome day for him; a painful one for me and the rest of our family.
As I think back over that last week of his earthly life, I am caught up in such a gut-wrenching ache. It was a very hard week. Watching your husband die is never on your to-do list.
Yet, I can honestly say I felt such relief and joy for him once it was over.
Cancer-free was his desire. God granted that prayer; just different than we had hoped.
I will be honest and tell you that the weekend has been hard. Although I stayed relatively busy, the loneliness and silence screamed with a deafening emptiness.
carried me through these days just as He has since the day I accepted His gift of salvation through His Son, Jesus Christ.
I have intimately known that “carrying” for these past 2 years.
I still remember, but I remember differently.
For the most part, my memories are not painful, but joyful.
I choose to be thankful for what we had instead of fretting over what we didn’t have.
I am thankful for God’s mercy in calling Les home before he suffered physical pain.
I am thankful for the strength Les showed during his sickness and the way he protected me until his very last breath.
I am thankful that protection involved his concern for my future security, both financially and physically.
I am thankful for the 36 years of marriage we did have.
I am thankful for his faithfulness to me during those years.
I am thankful to know Les gave his heart and his life to Jesus so I can know for sure that he is now in the presence of God.
I don’t grieve for Les.
He’s good; in fact- he’s GREAT!
My grief has been and is for myself and my family who will miss him as long as we live.
Lots of love, Sharon
“Accept each day just as it comes to you.
Do not waste your time and energy wishing for a different set of circumstances.
trust Me enough to yield to My desires and purposes.
Remember that nothing
can separate you from My loving Presence;
you are Mine.”
(from Jesus Calling by Sarah Young)