Riding home from the beach with my dad this past Monday morning, I was struck by the barrenness of winter. Everything looks so sad and lonely. It’s like a veil of dinginess covers the earth. Yet we know that spring is getting ready to burst forth with the new life it always brings. I love spring!! I love the flowers and the honeybees and the blooming trees. I love the warmer weather and how the lawn greens up. I love to sit on my back porch and listen to the birds as they joyfully work to build a home for their soon-to-come family. Oh, the promise of new life!!!! As we rode and I looked, I was reminded of how my life used to be sad and lonely and covered with the dinginess of sin. My spirit leapt within me as I thanked God for the new life He has given me; a life full of the fruit of His Spirit. You know it is not a coincidence that Jesus was crucified, buried and rose again in the spring. When He rose that early spring morning, He brought with Him the promise of new life for those who believe. Trusting in Jesus brings us out of the darkness of winter into His marvelous light of spring.
The tombstone for Les’ grave was placed today. It was my desire to have a memorial that would honor both Les and God. I believe that it does. I am thankful for my dad, my daughter, my granddaughter and my good friend, Edna, for being there with me. I realize Les isn’t really there; only his “earth suit”, but I want his descendants to know about him, even if it’s only by this marker. Many of the things we do after the death of a loved one is really just for us. It helps us cope.
Although I do recognize the permanence of Les having already moved to our new home, the tombstone was a strong reminder that he’s really not coming back. This made it a somewhat difficult day. To add to that, I loaded some of his clothes in the car tonight to be donated to a group of men who can use them. It is hard to walk into his closet and see it emptying little by little. But there are people who need good clothes , so I am choosing to see that they receive them.
It has been 3 months now, yet it seems like an eternity since Les moved on. I miss him greatly. But God has truly given me a sense of peace and comfort. Getting back into life has been more difficult than I imagined, but I am slowly finding my way back.
I would be amiss if I didn’t mention my desire that you, too, know the joy of new life in Christ. Do you know Him? If not, what are you waiting for? “Spring” is ready to burst forth in your life.
Lots of love, Sharon