New Year, New Opportunites

Welcome to my brand new blog.  It has been a challenge for me to get this set up and moving forward.  CaringBridge was quite simple.  I am excited about sharing with you as I start this new year on a brand new journey; one I didn’t wish to have but find myself in. 

After 36 years of marriage, being widowed is a very odd place to be.  I keep waiting for Les to come home, then remember that he’s not.  I miss him a great deal.  After 13 months of dealing with cancer, we had become extremely close and dependent on one another.  Les was the one I asked all the questions I needed answers to.  He was the trivia king!  Everyday, there are things I want to ask him or tell him.  Just tonight, I picked up my cell phone to call him (I’m at the beach with my dad and sister) then remembered he’s not there.  I guess those things will get easier. 

Christmas was harder than I had expected.  The toughest part was dinner with Les’ family.  It was the first time I’d ever been with them without him.  They didn’t mention Les the whole time.  I took it upon myself to talk about him.  No one should think they have to protect me by not talking about him.  Yes, my life has changed, but he will ALWAYS be a major part of my life.  Sharing our memories of him gives me great pleasure and I believe it honors him.

It is 6 weeks ago today that Les went home.  It seems like a lifetime ago.  As I look to the future, I wonder where it will lead.  I am trusting God for the plans He has made for me.  He has been faithful to this point and I know He will continue to be.  Life isn’t always fair, but God is always good even though we may not understand.  Everyday we have a choice.  We can wallow in the unfairness of life or we can rejoice in the goodness of God.  I choose to rejoice.


10 thoughts on “New Year, New Opportunites

  1. Sharon,
    I have followed your and Les’ journey first through Daddy and then through Caring Bridge. I’m sure he and Les are enjoying their new home!!!! I want to tell you how much your strength and faith have helped me as I have been dealing with Daddy’s death. I struggle with depression and many times you have been there just when I needed some encouragement. I know your life is forever changed but I agree that talking about the ones we lose is the best way to honor their lives. I will continue to follow your blog and have no doubt i will be moved by the words you aree given to speak. You are in my heart and prayers and here if I can ever be of service to you. In His love, June

    1. Thank you for your sweet comment, June. I was so happy to hear from you. 2011 was a difficult year for both of us. If anything I’ve written has helped you or anyone else in any way, I am both humbled and honored. I think of Ossie so much. How is Lillian doing? JT and Ken said she doesn’t answer her phone, so they aren’t up to date on her well-being. I don’t struggle with depression, but I know a lot of folks who do. I hope you have a support system in place; a Bible study group or friends. That makes a huge difference in our lives. We live quite a distance apart, but if you need me to pray with you or for you (or anything else) just let me know.
      God bless you, Sharon

  2. Bless you every day as you look to Him for direction for you new life…I think sometimes what it must be like also…Les was such a wonderful man and a blessing to many…keep busy, but still too.

  3. God does indeed have a plan for you and all of us as well. What a relief! Life without Les is certainly different. I walked by your room here at the beach house yesterday and could picture Les as though he were right here with us, sitting on your bed. I think of him every day and miss him so much. He was my go to guy for a word of wisdom and encouragement.
    I am here to walk this journey with you as your sister by birth, best friend by choice, and your eternal sister by the blood of Jesus. God has been working in your life “exceedingly abundantly,” and my prayer is that He will continue in ways that we can’t even imagine.
    May 2012 be a year that finds us all rejoicing in His love every minute and trusting Him completely as we walk out the plan He has for us.

    Love you long, love you strong, you know I mean it! 🙂 Deb

  4. Sharon, Melissa and I continue to pray for you and your family as you follow the Lord on this difficult journey. We, like many others, have enjoyed following your blogs and will look forward to your future blogs. You have traveled a road that none of us wish to trod but so many do. We miss Les but are satisfied in the sure knowledge that he is where we all hope to be soon enough, basking in the presence of his Lord , Jesus Christ. We love you and know that the Lord is going to continue to bless you as you continue to be a blessing to so many.

  5. sharon,
    i gotta say i can relate to what you are going through. it was such a shock to my system when samantha died suddenly and like you afterwards i would find myself wanting to tell her something and realise she wasn’t there. if there has been one thing i’ve learned it is that though we may go through seasons of anger and grief God can handle it. that and we will beyond the shadow of a doubt reach the point where we can rejoice. just know that you are in my prayers and mercedes is praying for you also,

    love,
    mike barwick

  6. Sharon, I was so sorry to hear of the your loss. We have lost touch over the years but I have always considered you my friend. I know of the pain your are in. We lost George on September 22nd very suddenly. I don’t believe I really cried for over a month because I was in shock over losing him and I didn’t believe it. Then reality set in and the flood gates opened. I know what you mean about expecting to hear his voice on the phone or find him at home when you get there. Christmas was so difficult. I cried at the least thing the whole week before and Christmas Day was the worst. We have a few traditions on Christmas Day that we have honored for so many years and it was just so different with him not there. One thing that has helped me so much is that Lindsay, our youngest, took pictures of him that were set out at visitation, complied them in a hardback book using Shutterfly (I think), and gave them to Jennifer & I for Christmas. There is the best picture of him on the front cover. I have it near my spot on the couch and am so comforted by it.

    You are such a strong woman to do this blog. I know the last year has been so difficult for you. I am so sorry you and Les had to go through this. I too do not know what God has in store for me. I have found such comfort in our church and church family. It sounds like you are a woman of strong faith also. I pray that the Lord gives you strength and comfort in these coming months. If I can help you in any way, please do not hesitate to let me know. I truly know what you are going through. Iam keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

  7. I went to Meredith and led Stacey’s Bible study with Campus Crusade. Saw your Link on Facebook. I cried when I read the part about his family trying to protect you. Sometimes when people try to protect us I think it ends up hurting more. I wanted to say I’m so sorry for your loss and that I think you’re brave to share your journey from this point forward. In this blog you talk about him as much as you want. I’ll be reading it!!

  8. Sharon, thank you so much for continuing your comforting words. This was my first Christmas without my mother and it was hard but through God everything is possible. I also miss Les, his guide words and his laugh that could always make me smile.

    Sue

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